For the victims

from my daily read of reflections for 29th of September...very timely...

"Are you in a hopeless situation now and you want to give up? Offer it to God and let Him take control of it."

"Lord, I offer my life to You. Take charge and let Your will be done."

Blessing

Dear Rio,

I've made a giant storehouse overflowing with every conceivable blessing you need, including all the financial resources you would ever need for all the dreams I have placed in your heart. The key of My storehouse is in your pocket. Gave it to you a long time ago. So when will you drop by and get some stuff?

Waiting for you,
God

P.S. I hope really soon, Rio.

I care

to be there with you
i wish
to shower you with enlightenment

i hope

to put a smile on your face

i desire

to hug you and to tell you "everything will be ok"
i want
for you to feel His presence

i pray

do this

i must

....

because...

still i care..

.

pic from Google reminded me of Casper.

May he rest in peace..

Weekend

Started the weekend with great deals and treats! :-)

Buy one take one shopping spree...wee!!!
Eat all you can Pinoy food...wee again!!!

and heartbreakingly ended it...

with news all over about the aftermath of Ondoy's heartless attack in the Metro. I pray for those affected. "May God give you grace to face this adversity and despite the coldness as you spent the night on your rooftops, may you still feel His warm embrace."

pics from an email I received

Cool

Dear Rio,

Many people don't plan to fail, they just fail to plan. Rio, I want you to plan for your happiness. Dream it. Write it. Believe it. This is your destiny.

Love,
God

P.S. I know the power of dreams. I dreamt you into existence, Rio. Cool, huh?

Butterfly

Martin: How's my butterfly doin'?
Rio: mmm...Soon to be OK
Martin: What? Is there a new ___ in your life?
Rio: mmmmmm
Martin: But you're working on it?
Rio: mmmm...Yeah :-)

Great Success

Dear Rio,

Embrace failure. Fail forward. Fail quickly. So that you can start again. It's the only road to success.

To your great success,
God

P.S. Rio, you will succeed. I know.

Dear God,

Thank you for giving me life's fair share of failures so that I can appreciate success.

With high hopes,
Rio

It's too late

Is it because you just miss me?

Is it because sadness is knocking on you?

Is it because this is just an escape...your only way out...from the guilt that haunts you?

Is it because it's totally over and you just mean well?

Or Is it because love is still screaming and it has never fade?

Why?........ Please make me understand...before it's too late...too late...

Spontaneity

Eid ul-Fitr, often abbreviated to Eid, is a Muslim holiday that marks the end of Ramadan, the Islamic holy month of fasting. Eid is an Arabic word meaning "festivity", while Fiṭr means "to break fast"; and so the holiday symbolizes the breaking of the fasting period. It is celebrated after the end of the Islamic month of Ramadan.-Wikipedia

I celebrated this holiday for the first time here in Dubai and the four days off from work was well-spent.

• Jogged at my comfort zone. Jogging, then walking, then deep thinking, then jog again, walk again, think again...was my routine as I was accompanied by the songs on my mp3 and a bottle of thirst-quencher.

• A date with Bro. I promised him I won't miss visiting him on this long holiday to have my weekly dosage of His blessing.

• Got a text. "R u coming 2nyt?". Didn't reply. Got a call. "OK see you then." Persistence paid off. Girls night out. Kick off party at Chikka Grill after one month of closure due to Ramadan. I missed my partey mates, Bull frog and of course, Dhim. Thanks Tina for the free entrance and sa napakagandang pwesto :-)

• Will go out with Ex-Smartee. As of this blogging, don't know yet where we are heading tonight.

• We were just chatting and after an hour we were together. An impromptu meeting. Had a nice time. Details? I'm just happy.

These all happened without planning. Before the long weekend started, I really don't have plans. But I said to myself, I should make the most out of this holiday. And yes- I did! Spontaneity! I Love!

One More Chance

Let and I had a movie trip. We watched her fave-One More Chance. Me with my HDD. Let with YouTube. The following lines struck me most:

if kaya pang ayusin, pipilitin, but if this is really what both of you need, then just be strong, magiging mahirap at masakit pero hopefully, all the pain will be worth it.

"pano tayo pano yung mga pangarap natin akala ko ba walang magbabago? papano na tayo?"
"wala ng tayo"
"ganun lang yun...5 years... itatapon mo lang lahat hindi mo na ko pwede bigyan ng isa pang pagkakataon para maayos ko to...but you're asking for too much..ang hinihingi mo mawala ka sa buhay ko... kahit mahirap ayusin natin to"
"kailangan ko to kailangan mo rin"
"pero ikaw ang kailangan ko"

mahal na mahal kita kahit ang sakit sakit na..

I love you and I will tell you everyday, Everyday until you forget the things that hurt. And how I wish I could take them away. If only it could be done, I'll do it for sure. "...but it cannot be done coz you won't let me .."

"baka ok na sya"
"ok na sya as in hindi na sya galit sa kin?"
"ok as in tanggap na nya na di na kayo magkakabalikan kasi nakamove on na sya"

"she loved me at my worst, you had me at my best...at binalewala mo lang lahat ng yun.."
"i just made a choice.."
"and you chose to break my heart.."

nasasaktan ako kahit di naman ako dapat nasasaktan...sana kaya ko na lang tiisin yung sakit na nararamdaman ko...kasi ako yung humiling nito di ba? ako yung may gusto...sana kaya ko na lang sabihin sa yo na...masaya ko para sa yo...para sa inyo...sana kaya ko...sana kaya ko...pero hindi e...kasi ang totoo umaasa pa rin akong sabihin mo sana ako pa rin...ako na lang... ako na lang ulit..

baka kaya tayo iniiwan ng taong mahal natin, kasi baka may bagong darating na mas ok, na mas mamahalin tayo, yung taong di tayo sasaktan at paasahin, yung nag-iisang taong magtatama ng mali sa buhay natin... ng lahat ng mali sa buhay natin

sorry...i'm really really sorry...dahil nasasaktan kita...di ko sinasadya

minsan it's better for two people to break up ...so they can grow up...

"mahal mo ba ko? mahal mo ba sya?"
"di ko kayang makita kang nasasaktan.."
"ipikit mo mga mata mo, para kung masaktan man ako, hindi mo makita.."

yun lang...
4 am...sleep.

Be Happy

Dear Rio,

Life is short. One hundred years is short. So wear your party pants. Be happy. Suck the joy of every single day I give you. Be happy, God P.S. Rio, I want you to celebrate and sing. Dear God, Very timely...Thank you for giving me the answer to my question and for giving me the permission to be happy. I will... Happy I am, Rio

Aide-Memoire

Cats have always been wonderful companions and playmates that brighten and enrich our lives but they are also amazing teachers. In this book, cat lovers, both lifelong and reluctant, share what they have learned from their furry companions. Chicken Soup for the Soul: What I Learned from the Cat will delight readers with humorous, heartwarming, and inspiring stories about lessons our feline friends and family members have taught us.-website

I so want this book to serve as an aide-memoire of our dear Tala and Tisoy while I'm away from home..."For both of you, do not ever leave home...you, two little creatures, are mama and papa's source of joy."

A home is not a home without a cat.

.

here are some of Tala's pics

hours before I left for Dubai

kittens they were

with his butterfly bling bling

while in deep sleep

Just Happy

my routine is now changed

smiles are constantly appearing on my face

you are an addition to my prayer

the silver lining on my cloud

i'm not expecting...i'm just happy

"my new _______"

Door Opener

Dear Rio,

Don't give up. Life rewards those who persevere. I promise you that if you don't give up, ultimately, you will find that open door. It has been waiting for you.

Your Door Opener,
God

P.S. When the going gets tough, the tough get going. Rio, I made you tough.

Dear God,
Thank you for never giving up on me and making me still on this life's trying waves.
Thankful,
Rio

Gift

Louise Anthony...

thank you for this most wonderful birthday gift that you gave to mama..her whispering hope was granted

thank you for sending the sign that she has nothing to worry... that she will be ok...

thank you for your presence which brought her peace of mind

please do send our never-ending thank you's to Him

Source of Blessing

Dear Rio,

If only you see what I see in you. Then you'll realize how great I am—and how great you are.


Your Infinite Source of Blessings,
God

P.S. I'll give you a hint. Rio, you're more magnificent than a quadrillion suns put together. (And I know suns. I made every single one of them.)

Yesterday

after 17 years...

it started with a surprising message..

then a text..

then a call..

the next day, a chat...

we walked together down memory lane...strange...coz it's as if the past 17 years was only yesterday..a smile was drawn on my face as i reminisce our cute childhood love :-)

For him...welcome to Dubai..

P.S. I love You

I liked the movie because it's about love and abandoned not by choice. I liked the scenes when:

• Holly is having tantrums and the kiss and make up that kicks in right after

• Holly celebrated her first birthday..30th..without Gerry

• Holly was drunk and her mother was there...just simply there

• Holly sang..I love you til the end..I love you til the end..I love you til the end

• the real honest to goodness aged couple appeared

• Gerry wrote-make sure you do everything you wanna do whenever you wanna do it-go find it! find that thing that makes you like nobody else..look for a sign...
  

• a song was sung which is suppose to help her move on, but ended up reminding her of him...of them

• Holly's mom said-you have to stop waiting...you gotta walk ahead..

• and most especially the scene when she finally gave in...found her new love..."Dear Gerry, you said you wanted me to fall in love again, and maybe one day I will. But there are all kinds of love out there. This is my one and only life, And its a great and terrible and short and endless thing, and none of us come out of it alive. I don't have a plan..."

The gone Gerry helped her to ease the pain..."it's time baby!" to cope up...to move on...to discover who she is without him..to take care of herself without any help from him.

Here comes the hopeless romantic...no I'm not...my hopes are high..I deserve the best and he's out there...he's just with all the wrong women (ayt Denise?)

oopss! 5 am..off to sleep

Mama, I miss

My mom is a neverending song in my heart of comfort, happiness, and being. I may sometimes forget the words but I always remember the tune. ~ Graycie Harmon

Mama, I miss you...

I am so yearning for you-your stories...the food you cook...your advices...you-all about you...

I miss you so much today because you just had your birthday...because my bonding with Tita Leah today made me realize the adversity of motherhood (teardrops while on the bus)...because I have so many stories I want to share to you and because you just went this procedure...and so this text...

Rio: Papa, dalawa na lang kayo ni Mama jan a...alagaan mo at pagalingin mo pasyente mo a...luv u
Papa: Opo...luv u 2

Mama...don't worry...my prayers on my recent visits to Bro is for you to be OK.
Also..don't worry about me...I am ok..I will be ok...sorry po sa lahat and I love you very much.

Tita Lei salamat for making me realize more my mother's worth..

Feeling Blue

There are times in our lives when we are swept over by raging emotions, times when we are overwhelmed by sadness, overcome by misery, times when we feel that we are loved only for the worth others could get from us and not for who really are. It is natural to feel this way.

Sometimes we all need to be alone, to feel blue, to feel lonely, to listen to a song and cry. Then we ask ourselves, why does the song have to end? Why do we have to cry when love is taken away from us? Why does it have to hurt when we let go of someone we love?

In a relationship we treasure, the hardest thing to do is saying goodbye and setting someone free. For every last embrace, a part of us dies. Every tear drop that falls washes away our hope. Then, we are left with nothing but pain and bitter memories because we have lost love but never knew how and will probably never know why.

We try to get away, but every move we make somehow has its way of reminding us of our past all over again. Every turn of our head and every blink of an eye remind us of love, lost in eternity, and it makes us wonder how one person can make us feel so empty, so alone, and so desolate.

Every song, no matter how beautiful it is, will have to end on it’s last note. Like every day has its night. All that has started will have to end on its own time. It is in inevitability that we cannot restrain something that we cannot control, and just a fact that we have to accept and live up with.

Let us remember that our lives does not have to end where our heartaches begin. Somewhere, someone will come along and sing us his song of love. Someday, someone will fill our lives with joy and happiness. Somehow, we will find love again, and it will wipe away out tears and bring us the promise of a new life, a new hope and a beautiful beginning.

thank u jd'm

Happy Birthday Mama Mary

It was Mama Mary's birthday yesterday. I went to Church to greet Her. As I wait for the mass to start, Her birthday last year vividly came to me.

Lala and I went to Greenbelt Church albeit the intense rains in the Metro. We were not troubled because at one point in the mass , the celebrant gave a firm assurance that before the mass ends..the rain will stop..it did... God stopped the rain... A simple reminder that without a doubt, miracles do really exist...The mass came to its end...To go home, we went. But unfortunately, due to heavy rains, we had a hard time sighting an empty MGE or EMP. Hours passed. So we decided to eat than to battle with the rain and other passengers so eager to go home. The unfortunately became fortunately...a blessing in disguise...bonding with my dear Lala whom I truly miss.

Despite the odds, the bonding made this day special. Aside from that... I received a promise... A promise that on that day, whatever your prayer...whatever your wish...it will be given...because it is Mama Mary's birthday, instead of us giving her gifts, She will be the one giving gifts...She will help us for our prayers to be granted...Three months later, exactly the 8th of December, Immaculate Conception...the prayer was granted. I received a call from Jho confirming...Prayer granted.

And so yesterday, during the mass, as I went down on my knees, tears rolled down my cheeks, I cling tight on my personal intention. I am keeping the promise. It happened before. It will happen again. Prayer will be granted...

Thank you Mama Mary. As a true-blue Marian, I will forever keep the faith...keep the fork..

Ask

Ask, and it will be given to you. Seek, and you will find. Knock, and it will be opened for you.

You do not have, because you do not ask God.

I asked and it was given...it doesn't hurt to ask and it never hurt to ask..

Thank you Lord for you know what my heart truly desires.

I am having sleepless nights...nothing can lull me to sleep...Then rise and shine...I asked for a simple wake up prayer...I asked for this something to help me make it through the day...In a minute or two...the prayer was instantly answered...ding dong..

I asked and it was given...Believe.

gudam :)... i had...

King

Daddy: where is ninang rio?
King: dibay (toinksss!!!)

Alesssandra Joy

Li'l Alex

One day, his inaanak uttered out of nowhere... "Mommy, gusto ko pumunta Osh-tre-lia..."

Adrienne Jade

Jho's cute little angel

Adie. 11 months. Dubai Mall. Sept 04 09

The SECRET

i've been given a glimpse of a great SECRET...

the SECRET is the answer
to all that has been,
all that is, and
all that will ever be...

the SECRET is the law of attraction...

whatever it is that you are feeling
is a perfect reflection
of what is in the process
of becoming

you can begin right now to feel healthy...you can begin to feel prosperous...you can begin to feel THE LOVE THAT'S SURROUNDING YOU even if it's not there...and what will happen is... the universe will correspond to the nature of your song...the universe will correspond to the nature of that inner feeling...and manifest... because that's the way you feel...

what you think
and what you feel
and manifests
is always a match
every single time...no exception

you create your own universe as you go along

take the first step in faith
you don't have to see the whole staircase
just take the first step

all that we are is the result of what we have thought

gratitude-whatever we THINK about and THANK about...we BRING about
visualize-imagination is everything...its the preview of life's coming attractions

whatever the mind of man can conceive, it can achieve

when you have inspired thought you have to trust it and you have to act on it

you are the only one who creates your reality

what you resist, persist

you are not here to try to get the world to be just as you want it to be
you are here to create the world around you that you choose
while you allow the world as others choose it to be to exist also

I believe that you're great, that there's something magnificent about you. Regardless of what has happened to you in your life, regardless of how young or how old you think you might be, the moment you begin to think properly, there's something that is within you, there's power within you, that's greater than the world. It will begin to emerge. It will take over your life. It will feed you. It will clothe you. It will guide you, protect you, direct you, sustain your very existence, if you let it.

The End

Change was coming. I could feel it. It wasn't a pleasant prospect, not when life was perfect the way it was.

"Bella, we're leaving"
"I'll come with you."
"You can't, Bella. Where we're going… It's not the right place for you."
"Where you are is the right place for me."
"I'm no good for you, Bella."
"You're the very best part of my life."
"My world is not for you"
"You promised that you would stay–"
"Of course, I'll always love you… in a way."
"Don't do this."
"You're not good for me, Bella."
"If… that's what you want."
"I would like to ask one favor, though, if that's not too much,"
"Anything"
"Don't do anything reckless or stupid,"
"I will"

"Don't worry.... Time heals all wounds."
"Goodbye..."

Love, life, meaning…..... over.

-Wait Santiago...I'll see you again..

just need to finish this

before Edward and Bella hits the big screen once more.

Paano

Day 1
"Adrian...pano ba maging lector sa Church?"
"Itatanong ko...Ieeemail daw si..."

Day 2
"Ano na???"

--- a dream come true...soon :-)